When I say the beautiful words \u201cI am alive,\u201d I can\u2019t help but smile. Being alive is such a gift. Taking a breath. And another. And another. Today and everyday, I am grateful to be alive.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m going to be very honest though- I haven\u2019t always felt this way. I went through a very dark period of time in my life where I didn\u2019t feel happy to be alive. I actually don\u2019t know how I would have reacted to someone saying, \u201cI\u2019m so grateful to be alive\u201d\u2026I think I would have rolled my eyes and thought \u201cwell, you\u2019ve never been through real shit then.\u201d I\u2019m actually thankful that social media wasn\u2019t really a thing back then because I would have seen things like the ones I post today as fake or stupid or unrealistic.<\/p>\n
I went through a number of years where I was extremely lost. And life didn\u2019t feel happy or honestly, even worth it. Thankfully, I never truly wanted to end my life. But I did have a strong feeling everyday that I just didn\u2019t want to live anymore. That I wanted to just *poof* disappear. It brings tears to my eyes even writing this. To remember how sad I felt. How unbelievably hard getting out of bed was. How I felt guilty when I was having a good day. How it felt wrong to laugh. As corny as it sounds, it feels like it was a different life.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m not sharing this for sympathy or to make anyone think I ever had a bad life by any means. I\u2019m sharing this because my hope is that if just one person who feels this way is reading this, that they know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I\u2019m reaching out to YOU. That through self-care practices that work for you, that make you smile even for a second, that alleviate the tightness in your heart, you can and WILL come out of this darkness and feel gratitude for being alive. It may take a lot of hard work and it won\u2019t always be fun. But it is possible. And you are not alone.<\/p>\n
For me personally, meditation, yoga & mindfulness have been game changers in my life. I can\u2019t even describe how night and day I feel thanks to my self-care. Even when I take steps back, every tiny step forward has made a tremendous difference in my health and well being. I am GRATEFUL to be ALIVE.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
When I say the beautiful words \u201cI am alive,\u201d I can\u2019t help but smile. Being alive is such a gift. Taking a breath. And another. And another. Today and everyday, I am grateful to be alive. I\u2019m going to be very honest though- I haven\u2019t always felt this way. I went through a very dark […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7890","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7890","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7890"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7890\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7891,"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7890\/revisions\/7891"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7890"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7890"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newzdiscover.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7890"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}